Here We Go Again!

OK,Guys so here we go! My name is Danni and I am 21 years old. I have struggled with my weight pretty much my whole life. Before my 7th grade year, I was a zero the summer before 7th grade I got really depressed and ate Little Debbie snacks and laid in bed watching Disney Movies all summer. I went from a size 0 to a size 9 that summer. I kept that weight on all the way until I graduated high school. On my senior trip I went with my best friend to the beach and had never been so upset and insecure with my body before! They wanted to walk the beach and I was too ashamed, so I remained where I was and cried on the beach vowing when I got back I would lose it.

I started my first weight loss in October 2006 @ size 10-12 and weighed 140 ( I am 5'3 1/2 by the way) . I worked out 5-6 days a week and limited my portion sizes, and was extremely Nazi about what i ate. It was hard at first but I wanted to be skinny like all my friends and was tired of never being noticed and sick of being the big one. After one month I was on a roll and the pounds began to walk off. I was do walking/running intervals 45 minutes- 1 hour every day and lifting weights as well as crunches. In February I finally weighed in and I was 110. I couldn't believe I was a zero again...I would grab a zero pair of jeans at the store in disbelief, there was no way these were going to fit...and they did!

I kept it off, until I moved to Lafayette in January 2008. Let me explain Lafayette, LA. These people live to eat. Not eat to live, which is what I taught myself to do and grew accustomed to it! The pounds began to creep on even though I remained working out and eating right. I just would splurge once a week instead of never. I eventually began to not work out everyday and now work out maybe once to twice a week. I went from a 0 to 2 to a 4 to a 6 to today's 10-12. I have gained all my weight back now and have never been so humiliated!

OK so, here is what I have learned from going from Fat to skinny and back to fat. People always judge a book by its cover, even your friends. Sadly, some people that have great bodies and are beautiful people will only befriend people that look like them. This is upsetting when girls that used to invite me places with them will not give me the time of day now. Just because I put on some weight! Also, I went from no guy attention, to all these guys asking me on dates, to absolutely no guy attention yet again! This as you can imagine really takes its toll on a girl! It makes me angry because I haven't changed any, just my weight , but that's life so this can be motivation #1. Also, never listen to any one's criticism... a lot of people called me anorexic however I ate more than most of them and when you turn people's bad food down... don't listen to their comments of "You can eat it every once in a while." If you are like me, once in a while is not an option I cannot just eat something bad once in a day and just workout more...my mindset is i screwed up the day and so i might as well go crazy!

So here is the game plan. I NEED to lose weight because its making me ashamed to see my family and friends so I am missing out on life...and all because of food! FOOD! Something that is supposedly comforting yet makes you the most uncomfortable, it is the enemy when taken the wrong way therefore shall not be my friend but my aid in helping me reach my goals and strengthen my body! I will be blogging daily for 90 days! Why 90 days? Well I will be doing P90X as well as running/walking intervals for 1 hour daily. I will report on how I feel each day and what I consume. This is going to be my motivation and hopefully it will encourage some of you to make a lifestyle change. I, also, need to do this because I'm going to school to be a dietitian and no one wants an unhealthy looking dietitian... kind of an oxymoron. Each week I will have a reward and each month I will have a bigger reward. I will not have food rewards I will, however, have a "splurge" once a week but a healthy one. Whether that be Whole wheat cinnamon toast one morning for breakfast or a cookies and cream protein shake from Planet Nutrition.... all my rewards will not technically affect my diet in any way.

One more thing, I will also be posting some recipes. When I first lost weight I really missed home cooked foods and certain foods that I loved... I was able to take those foods and make them really healthy and lifestyle change friendly and I will post those as I make them for you all to make at home too. They are all quick and easy most of them taking less than 30 minutes to make and are made with a lot of pantry staples. So here we go its going to be an interesting 90 days and I cannot wait for my results! Day 1 starts tomorrow and Mr. Will Power will be my friend at the end of this!